Sunday, August 29, 2010

Bad Day

I knew from the moment I woke up that today just had that "bad" vibe. I was grumpy and irritable and I felt  like my mood never got out of bed when I did. At church I felt like I was an intruder, everyone was so happy and engaged and yet I wished I could just crawl into a dark hole. When my children talked to much I felt like my head was going to spin off to space. When one of the kids touched me I wanted to scream 'just leave me alone'. I yelled at my husband and made him feel like he was letting me down somehow. We went to the supermarket and I was certain that everyone was looking at me like I was crazy and what on earth was I thinking having 3 children.

I was angry at people around me for being happy, for genuinely being content with their lives. I was appalled at my behaviour towards my family. I was frustrated that this horrible PND chose me and that some days I let it have all of me instead of it just being a piece of me I am learning to manage.

It was a bad day. But tomorrow is another day.

On a better note I bake some yummy Tan Slice and added the recipe to my 'What's cooking' section.


4 comments:

  1. Hey Jess, you are not alone, I have had a day like that too, tomorrow will be better and you are so brave for sharing!! Thanks for your honesty.

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  2. Hi, just dropped by from KMB. Sorry to hear you had a rough day and good on you for being so open and honest. 'This too shall pass' is my mantra :) It's so hard to be on top form all the time - and as mothers we sometimes feel such pressure to be just that. Hugs to you and hope you're having a better day today. Those slices look absolutely delicious! I shall have to give them a go with my daughter - who loves to bake :) x Best wishes, Sarah

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  3. And how about that, for better notes!? That is some seriously textbook-awesome Tan Slice you've got posing there! ;)

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  4. Sorry to hear you had such a rough day... but as you said, what better to perk you up than Tan Slice. Yum. My favourite.
    xx

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